Feeling Lost and Questioning Purpose

This post comes from a raw, honest season of figuring things out. I’m keeping it here as part of my story—unfiltered, unframed.

I feel like a useless piece of shit sometimes — and honestly, I’ve felt that way for a very long time.

I’m not focused, disciplined, or clear about what I want from my life. There are so many things I’m passionate about, so many things I could talk about... but what am I doing with all of them?

At the moment, I’m still a slave to a 9-to-5. I don't loathe it, thankfully, but it’s not what I dream about. I want to speak my heart out, curse if I want to, and drop the facade we’re all supposed to wear in public.

Why can’t we just be our raw, authentic selves?

The irony is, the world sees potential in me. I speak English well (even though it’s not my native language), I dress well, I love colors, I have an eye for detail... and yet, I’m stuck feeling like a jack of all trades and master of none.

Everywhere I look, people talk about "0 to 6 figures," "0 to 1000 YouTube subscribers," but we never see the grind behind the scenes. We glorify the destination, not the messy, chaotic journey it takes to get there.

Does any of this resonate with you?

Would you want to create a space where we don't have to pretend?
Because honestly — I’m tired of pretending.